Jeffrey Arthur Pawluk
8/4/1956 - 1/18/2000
A Memorial Page of Gathered Poems.
One Dream That Could Come True
If we had one lifetime wish,
One dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God
So hard for yesterday and you.
The things we feel so deeply
Are the hardest things to say
But we, your family, love you,
In a very special way.
They say memories are golden,
Well maybe that is true
But we never wanted memories,
We only wanted you.
If teardrops were a stairway
And heartaches made a lane,
We'd walk a path to Heaven,
And bring you back again.
A thousand times we've needed you
And a thousand times we'll cry,
If our love could have saved you,
You never would have died.
I AM EVERYPLACE
Mom, do not mourn for me,
I am still here though you do not see,
I am right by your side each night and day.
And within your heart I long to stay.
My body is gone but I am always near.
I am everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I will never depart,
As long as you keep me alive in your heart.
I will never wander out of your sight.
I am the brightest star on a summer night.
I will never be beyond your reach.
I am the warm moist sand when you are on the beach.
I am the colorful leaves when Fall comes around.
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I am the beautiful flowers of which you are so fond.
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.
I am the first bright blossom you see in Spring.
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I am the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine.
And you will see that the face of the moon is mine.
When you start thinking there is no one to love you.
You can talk to me through the Lord above you,
I will whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees.
And you will feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.
I am the hot salty tears that flow when you weep.
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I am the smile you see on a baby's face.
Just look for me, I am everyplace.
He Only Took My Hand
Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around,
But he did not appear.
He said:"Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, mom
He only took my hand.
When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.
He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.
My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.
I love you all and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!
And so, you must all go on now,
Live one day at a time.
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.
The Broken Chain
We little knew that morning
That God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone;
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide;
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us one by one,
THE CHAIN will link again.
Only The Best
A heart of gold stopped beating,
two shining eyes at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove,
He only takes the best.
God knows you had to leave us,
but you did not go alone-
for part of us went with you,
the day He took you home.
To some you are forgotten,
to others just part of the past,
but to those of us who loved and lost you,
the memory will always last.
God Saw You
God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be.
So He wrapped his arms around you,
and whispered, "Come to me".
You didn't deserve what you went through,
So He gave you rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
He only takes the best
And when I saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain
I could not wish you back
To suffer that again.
I Will Remember
Here I stand on solid ground
Reaching up to you
Begging for the strength and will
That I pray will see me through
I feel you there inside my heart
Asking me, "please, not to cry,
Just live for all we shared together,
There's no such thing as good- bye."
The courage you showed throughout it all
As the battle raged on inside
You never stepped down or lost your ground
You fought with dignity and pride
And it's pride I have for all you are
For everything you gave
You never questioned the way things were
You just kept on true and brave
You opened my eyes to a brighter world
Side by side, we rose above
You graced me with your friendship
And you honored me with your love
I can't promise to always be strong
And never shed a tear in your name
But I will never regret and I will never forget
And I will never quit the game
So I lay a rose beside your name
And I wipe away a tear
And I hear you whisper inside my heart
Saying, "Remember me here. "
Letter From Heaven
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for you dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of My plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things, that He wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you... in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years,
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
(excerpt from Letter From Heaven)
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together
is untouched, unchanged.
What ever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes
that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
From William Shakespeare's
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far way into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thought that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.